And it sucks because he’s gonna be in Nantucket next week like the little rich boy he is and I probably won’t be able to talk to him which is terrible because I’ll be at Purity with Chris and I’m probably going to make horrible decisions and I really don’t want to. I’ve been dreading this for a year and Cameron could have come if he wasn’t going to fucking Nantucket so now I’m going to be alone there with Chris. I’m just gonna bring lots of books and weed and Cards Against Humanity so maybe we can all get along over a terrible party game and hopefully he hates me but hopefully he doesn’t. I don’t want to do that again. I don’t want to be taken advantage of and then fall for Chris again because he’s just an asshole. A pretty asshole. Why is he so pretty? It kills me. I just wish Cameron could come. 

I’m in way too much pain over Cameron today



"Alone!!! I am alone, I am always alone, No matter what.”
Original handwritting found in one of Marilyn Monroe’s diary.